Appeased

After a fortnight from hell following 6 months of horror, this Easter Long Weekend has revived me. I made sure I didn't have to see anyone, was so glad not to speak to anyone and finally my internal monologue has helped me to come to a decision. It feels good.

I also cleaned up the entire house. It's like my apartment and my inner self are in synch and everything feels good with the world.

My flatmate came back. Bit envious and wistful for the young romance she is currently embarking on. I can't remember a time when it was exciting to be with someone and that your every waking moment was thinking about them and wanting to be with them. It feels like an utter lifetime ago. I don't even know if I ever had a proper one - just lots of longing and then stuffing it up badly.